Halloween

By the way, my Halloween ideas so far;

-shakira as 'she wolf' (just by cutting up my black leotard from dance)



-or her 'waka waka' outfit



-a hula girl with flower wreath, etc



-a gypsy



-a warrior princess like Xena or something



All still just ideas...

Luff Kalynka☆彡

Rebel week!

"Do you know how hard it is to sneak out of your window with a newly pierced belly button? It freaking hurts!"

I must have said that 4 times last night while out with friends at the university bar during dollar draft night. What a week it's been! Again, I've neglected the blog, but I am back none the less! So this summer me and my best friend came up with our '20 for 20' list. Since we both turn 20 years old and felt like we had missed out on so much this far in our young lives, we compiled a list of 20 things that we would do over the summer to make it memorable. She has had her navel pierced for almost 2 years now, but has never had her ears pierced, while I've had mine since I was 13, but never dreamed of doing my belly! So among many of the other things we have already crossed off the list, yesterday we added those! It was a new experience to say the least, I think I will have to post a separate piece just describing the event itself. But what I want to get out today is how my actions and situations from within the last week have made me feel like a rebellious highschooler! I went to a concert on the weekend to see Down With Webster and there were so many young kids there being soooo immature, stupid, and just silly that I found myself starting to squeal right along with them and push and shove just as brutally! Then, I go out to get my navel pierced with my best friend and don't tell anyone in my family! Then get in a fight with my baba to the point that I risk sneaking out of my window to go out as opposed to just leaving anyways and causing more tension. I mean I'm 20 years old! I shouldn't feel the need to sneak around like that anymore! Who cares what changes I make to my body or if I decide to go out for drinks? It's gotten me thinking about how my family treats me, and further, what they view me as. My baba acts as if she still has ever right to rule my world or ground me, threatening me to take away the car or my own computer! I'm not a child, I'm also not on drugs, pregnant, or even having sex for that matter! So why on earth do I need to be treated like an irresponsible mess? I've brought up the issue a number of times, but as per usual, conversations like that go nowhere but to arguments and anger in my family. I just have to remind myself, that I am working 3 jobs and will be returning to university as a full-time student in the fall for my 3rd year! I am being very responsible and successful with what I've got, I'm on a good track somewhere, and want to keep it up! I can't let their need for control get me down or let their power-trips make me doubt myself. I'm doing well, they just choose not to see that. Instead all care to focus on is my 'disrespect' and 'inability to be a go-getter' or take care of my room. Which, might I add, is my own personal space! Leave it be! Yes, I am a work in progress, but that is no reason to treat me as a child or total screw up! I guess this rebellious week was just me acting out a little on my own. To prove that if I wanted to, I COULD get away with it. So props to me, but even more so for NOT doing it on a regular basis and being smarter than them. Yay me! Haha

Until next time,

Luff Kalynka☆彡

Spring Home & Garden Show

The Spring Home & Garden Show





So I went to the spring home and garden show again this year, always an eye-opening experience as well as a chance to engage in housewife-like interests haha! Of course I had to start with a picture with one of the many mascots! This year I found a dinosaur! Aaaaand yes, it looks like he's chomping down on my head! Haha he was funny :)







Next is the furniture section, I found a fabulous cow-print armchair and matching footrest! I fell in love with it instantly!~ it really matched what had been on my mind lately; I am planning on re-doing my room by scrapping all the old furniture and starting over with primarily white/black theme by mid-fall so this should fit in nicely! If that ever comes together I'll be sure to post before and after pics!







I finished off by of course taking some pictures in the garden areas! Me and my friends also spend a lot of time filling out ballots to enter in some of the draws that took place, the main prize often being a luxury hot tub! I wish!!

Some of the other things featured at the show included everything from boats & fire places, to nail polishes & jewelry...It was great fun!

Luff Kalynka☆彡

A tad bit tired...

I thought things were getting better. I mean, over reading week I was staying positive and having good relations with people, got a new job, transformed my room and my outlook! But I come back to University doubting things more than ever. After baba going back into the hospital and having family members attack me with their nasty remarks, not too mention all the pressure with school due dates, I just like giving up more than ever! I'm just SO overwhelmed! There's too much and I don't know what to do about it all, even just thinking about it gets me upset and worked up! Then I fall asleep, because I get so drained by the anxiety. But I end up sleeping away all my productivity! I only wanted to be the sweet and happy 19 yr old 'kalynk' that everyone used to think was so cute. And now I barely find the effort to keep up conversation and my famous contagious smile. It's not like being 'sweet or cute' was a show, but it feels like it's becoming one...Why is there just so much to worry about? Reading week was supposed to save me and be my break, my chance to recharge! Now here I am more drained than ever. I want to stay positive and say that I will pull through this, that I'll charm my way out of this whole mess!..but there are just sooo many people, thoughts, and EVENTS that are dragging me down :( Not to mention the crazy dreams I've been having lately, they are so realistic (and about real events in my life) that I wake up and don't realize until later in the day that they didn't actually happen! I'm not sure what all this means, but I'm tired, and I need to go take a nap or something before I can try to study for tomorrow...

Horoscope Love♥

I was bored and looking for a study break, when I stumbled upon an email from Tarot.com; the result of an old subscription I made years back. I used to LOVE that site because it would send me my daily horoscope and it would ALWAYS be right when other places weren't! Lately things have just been confusing and energy-draining for me so I decided to take a look at my horoscope again. What I found was uplifting and eye-opening :)

Greatest Strength:

Your playful and loving nature

Possible Weakness:

Need for approval can become too important

http://www.tarot.com/astrology/daily-horoscope/

This is just a taste of all the insight I gained about myself, stuff that really hit home and reminded me of who I am (no matter how naive that makes me)! I definitely suggest checking it out, if only for a good laugh or interesting take on things :)

~Kalynka♥

Okinawan love♥ Nan kuru nai sa!

なん くる ない さ or 難来る無いさ
These are words to live by...My favourite Okinawan quote! When all else fails, just think "No hardship will come! It will all be ok!" It may be naive...But it works! (if not just for comfort)

Luba

By the way, Luba is my sweet 1yr old puppy! With really bad separation anxiety from her first owners who used to keep her in a kennel from 9am-6pm because of work. It's going to be tough this next week of school, she will be alone in the house most of the day with baba in the hospital. She's a lot like me though, a tough cookie. I leave the TV on for her to have human voices around, and when I get home we go for a walk, then of course, at night she won't dare leave my side. It's bitter sweet in the morning when she tries to stop me from getting out of bed... I love you Luba♥ My Ukrainian sweetheart♥