Horoscope Love♥

I was bored and looking for a study break, when I stumbled upon an email from Tarot.com; the result of an old subscription I made years back. I used to LOVE that site because it would send me my daily horoscope and it would ALWAYS be right when other places weren't! Lately things have just been confusing and energy-draining for me so I decided to take a look at my horoscope again. What I found was uplifting and eye-opening :)

Greatest Strength:

Your playful and loving nature

Possible Weakness:

Need for approval can become too important

http://www.tarot.com/astrology/daily-horoscope/

This is just a taste of all the insight I gained about myself, stuff that really hit home and reminded me of who I am (no matter how naive that makes me)! I definitely suggest checking it out, if only for a good laugh or interesting take on things :)

~Kalynka♥

Okinawan love♥ Nan kuru nai sa!

なん くる ない さ or 難来る無いさ
These are words to live by...My favourite Okinawan quote! When all else fails, just think "No hardship will come! It will all be ok!" It may be naive...But it works! (if not just for comfort)

Luba

By the way, Luba is my sweet 1yr old puppy! With really bad separation anxiety from her first owners who used to keep her in a kennel from 9am-6pm because of work. It's going to be tough this next week of school, she will be alone in the house most of the day with baba in the hospital. She's a lot like me though, a tough cookie. I leave the TV on for her to have human voices around, and when I get home we go for a walk, then of course, at night she won't dare leave my side. It's bitter sweet in the morning when she tries to stop me from getting out of bed... I love you Luba♥ My Ukrainian sweetheart♥

Me and Luba♥

First of all, I'm just going to say; "That's ONE way to find out who's reading your blog!!!" I win. Second of all, Baba went back into emerg lastnight... This time is a little different, they still don't have an actual diagnosis and all they are really confirming is that they want to keep her for a week. Midterms on Monday should be fun. So for now, it's just me and Luba, studying it up and making runs to the hospital for visiting. Not to mention running the business here at home and answering all the questions from the concerned clients that I've had to cancel for the next month. I hope they can figure out what EXACTLY is wrong this time, since they were obviously wrong before. I also hope I can cope with this accordingly, although I must say, I'm getting rather tired of all these 'tests' from the past 2 years!

On a lighter note, my friend's surprise party on Saturday went pretty darn well. Considering it was my first time being a 'co-hostess' for that kind of thing I'm pretty proud. I'm really glad I could help give her that, after her mom died from cancer and her boyfriend of so long broke up with her, she really really really deserved something good in her life♥ Not to mention a chance for all of her friends to show their support! And YES! I survived the interaction with the EX! haha I actually barely noticed the fact he was there save for when he first walked in and looked like a caveman!!! (CRazzzzzy facial hair going on there...) So all in all it turned out well. Until I got home on Sunday to find baba having such a hard time breathing...

ANYWAYS!!!

Happy Birthday wishes to both Megan and Matt!

And

GOOD LUCK TO ME & LUBA!!!

Time Alone

I feel great after going to the gym, I finally got the chance to go since my other plans got cancelled, thank god! I really needed it. Even though I saw some familiar faces...I just plugged in my music and went to town. I didn't realize until after that I had been there almost 2 hours. That's a long time for me! I felt so great afterwards, until I checked my phone...I used to think I was such a social person, loved smiling and being around others. Lately though, I've just wanted nothing to do with anyone save for my absolute closest friends that have been with me through the events of the past year and a half. This may be rude, cruel even, but I've never been a selfish person and I think I deserve this moment of parsimony. It's nice to think that someone doesn't want to give up on you, because they think you need them and what not, but all that really does is cause me grief. I already have a lot of people who care about me and better yet, KNOW what I'm going through and KNOW when to back off. Sometimes you don't want someone to keep pushing you, you just want time to yourself. I just don't know how to show others that without coming off as a complete bitch, maybe that is the only way...It's especially uncomfortable when it seems like they have deeper feelings for you than friendship. I am NOT even willing to entertain ideas like that right now...I hope I can diffuse this situation accordingly, and in the meantime I'm going to go have a nap, and hopefully wake up happy again. then go to superstore and pick up baba's prescription and groceries... haha there's never really much room for escape is there?

Victory

"That the victory is not about not having bad days anymore. The victory is that you can get back up after having one."
-Christine Kane

This is what I am working towards, it takes time, but it will come. I have to tell myself that or else I will be in an inconsolable state of depression! So here's to a future victory! Cheers!~