Time Alone

I feel great after going to the gym, I finally got the chance to go since my other plans got cancelled, thank god! I really needed it. Even though I saw some familiar faces...I just plugged in my music and went to town. I didn't realize until after that I had been there almost 2 hours. That's a long time for me! I felt so great afterwards, until I checked my phone...I used to think I was such a social person, loved smiling and being around others. Lately though, I've just wanted nothing to do with anyone save for my absolute closest friends that have been with me through the events of the past year and a half. This may be rude, cruel even, but I've never been a selfish person and I think I deserve this moment of parsimony. It's nice to think that someone doesn't want to give up on you, because they think you need them and what not, but all that really does is cause me grief. I already have a lot of people who care about me and better yet, KNOW what I'm going through and KNOW when to back off. Sometimes you don't want someone to keep pushing you, you just want time to yourself. I just don't know how to show others that without coming off as a complete bitch, maybe that is the only way...It's especially uncomfortable when it seems like they have deeper feelings for you than friendship. I am NOT even willing to entertain ideas like that right now...I hope I can diffuse this situation accordingly, and in the meantime I'm going to go have a nap, and hopefully wake up happy again. then go to superstore and pick up baba's prescription and groceries... haha there's never really much room for escape is there?